Confirmed!!!

Finally!

Nabunutan kami ng tinik pareho, lalo na si ross. I know what the extension of his probation does...uhm DID...to his self-esteem.

But we're just so glad now that he's confirmed. At least he'll get to enjoy the benefits, medical and all. He'll be able to work better now kasi wala na syang iniisip at wino-worry.

Oh, and he got an increment in his salary!!! How lucky can we get. (yes, i'm mababaw).

Thank you Lord. Sobrang salamat po!!!

Why does it have to be so hard???

It's even harder when you are sleepy.... or you want to do something else... or you pretend that you know what you're doing...

Oh well...







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back from the grave

a lot has happened lately.

• crammed to finish my portfolio paper
• slept for at most 4 hours for at least two or three weeks just to finish my portfolio paper
• fucked up my portfolio defense and completely humiliated myself doing so
  
• cussed my adviser a million times
• almost gave up finishing my MA
• worked on my portfolio paper again!
• waited and put my life on hold for two weeks while waiting for the portfolio results

NEWS FLASH: WE DON'T HAVE WORK ON MONDAY! YAY!!!

• FINALLY PASSED MY PORTFOLIO - which means I'M FREAKING DONE WITH MY MA!!! YAY!!!

as if anybody cares.

oh well. i'm here at my new work in makati. i've been here for two weeks and one day, and i can count using my fingers how many days i've actually worked on something. people keep telling me to enjoy this down time because once we start working, we will really START working. maybe even longer than our usual schedule.

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i'm supposed to submit my revised paper before july 30. and i have done zilch. shet. will probably cram again. oh gosh. i can't do that again.

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bosing, please make us stronger. and more patient. and more resilient. please please please. i beg you. this isn't something i can easily let go. come to think of it, this is something i am not and will never be willing to let go. he is my future. i want to make a future with him. so please, make us stronger. we need you help. thank you.

WOOHOO!!!!

LIFE IS GOOD!!!

I'VE GOT A NEW JOB!!!
YAY! YAY! YAY!

please please please make it happen...

This will be my prayer from now on until I submit the application forms and I get the results...

Please, please, please make it happen. I beg of you. My last two posts might not have sounded good; selfish even. But please, I beg of you to make it happen. Please have them accept and hire me. And if I could add one more wish...let the job be in Singapore. or Australia. Or even in New Zealand. Just please tell them to get me. Hire me! I promise I will work harder than I have ever worked before, and I will TRY to be more responsible in everything I do :)

Thank you.

Amen.

ANOTHER NOTE TO SELF

FIND ANOTHER JOB!!!

SO YOU CAN FINALLY GET OUT OF THIS SHITTY OFFICE THAT YOU'RE IN.
SO THAT YOU CAN FINALLY HAVE A CAREER THAT YOU CAN REALLY CALL A CAREER.
SO THAT YOU CAN FINALLY DO SOMETHING WORTHWHILE WITH YOUR LIFE.
SO YOU CAN FINALLY HAVE A PAY THAT IS WORTH YOUR EFFORT.

:(

"you were created for teaching"

i was talking to my thai friend, nik, yesterday. i was ranting and complaining to him how i hate my job now. that i don't have the drive anymore. so here's how the conversation went... (he's thai, so pardon the english)

patricia (4/21/2009 3:21:41 PM): but im really really trying to find another work
patricia (4/21/2009 3:21:46 PM): i hate it here
nik (4/21/2009 3:22:09 PM): oh
nik (4/21/2009 3:22:23 PM): what s happen
patricia (4/21/2009 3:22:29 PM): here?
patricia (4/21/2009 3:22:42 PM): problems with the management
nik (4/21/2009 3:22:47 PM): hm
patricia (4/21/2009 3:22:51 PM): plus i dont have any drive to work anymore
patricia (4/21/2009 3:22:56 PM): i need another work
patricia (4/21/2009 3:23:02 PM): something more fulfilling
nik (4/21/2009 3:23:24 PM): it s time for working in school, i think
patricia (4/21/2009 3:23:44 PM): im actually thinking about getting a job in instructional design
nik (4/21/2009 3:23:45 PM): you were created for teaching

i was touched with what he said. the idea played on my head. maybe i really am. (haha. kapal ko.) then i remembered how i used to play school when i was a kid. how i used to tell my mom that i wanted to be a teacher like my teachers at school because...i don't know...i really liked them, and at that time, teaching other people really interested me. then i remembered that i also taught some of the kids in our neighborhood. (my mom liked to...as in was fond of...volunteer us (me and my brother) to church activities. the last thing she pushed us into doing was to teach kids the rosary and engage them in some church activities.) the stint only lasted for two weeks, but i remember liking the feeling of having kids that i teach really participate in the activities that i come up with. i liked making lessons and stuff for them. so maybe, MAYBE i can be really be a teacher after all. or maybe i'm really meant for that.

my only problem is my stage fright. i hate hate hate talking in front of a large audience, except when i have no other choice but do so.

hmm...have to think...

ho! ho! ho!

merry christmas!

i won't really be celebrating though. i'm not sure if i can even really feel the nine-day vacation because of we have a lot of rating to do.

oh, and i have to review for the compre. syet.

i have to seriously start looking for a new job by january next year. it's a must.

i'm going out of my wits because of rating.
i rated more than 50 files in two days.
anne, you smelly korean better pay up. on time.

kaching! kaching!

more than 2,200 files to listen to and evaluate.
that means, no christmas again.
no vacation.
*sigh*

i guess the only compensation from not being able to celebrate christmas in a normal and humane way is that we'll get double pay for every file we rate. oooohhhh!!!! i just hope they pay us on time.

excited na ako mag-december!

...kasi gusto ko na matapos ang final paper at video shoot para sa MA classes ko
...kasi gusto ko na mamili ng christmas gifts
...kasi gusto ko na makuha ang 13th month pay ko
...kasi gusto ko na mag-birthday ko

at syempre...

...kasi gusto ko na ma-feel ang hindi pumasok ng isang linggo sa opisina...

hay...langit yun malamang :)

pero sa ngayon, eto muna ang kelangan kong gawin:

• tapusin ang rating
• ipaayos ang internet sa bahay
• kumuha ng notes mula sa mga libro para sa aking synthesis paper
• mag-shoot ng video para sa class
• mag-edit ng video
• sumulat ng synthesis paper
• mag-prepare para sa report sa video

hay...lahat ng ito sa loob lang ng isa't kalahating linggo...

lists...

Reading list:

1. No Exit by Jean Paul Sartre
   
2. The Inheritance of Loss by Kiran Desai
3. Flying Fox in a Freedom Tree by Albert Wendt
4. Captain Full by Albert Wendt
5. The Lion and the Jewel by Wole Soyinka
6. Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood
7. Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
8. State of War by Ninotchka Rosca (haven't read this yet)

Things to do before the month ends (in no particular order):

1. finish reading books
2. make training report
3. make outline for synthesis paper
4. make draft of script for video shoot
5. buy a gift for Ross
6. have a hair spa

Ross and I need to find a new job.

Fast.

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We just got the news that by next month, we will be rating around TWO THOUSAND AND THREE HUNDRED SPEAKING TEST FILES. They are the meanest slave-drivers ever. This means I won't be celebrating Christmas again. This means I will be sleeping for only a couple of hours again. This means more money.

As Ross said, we better milk those @#$ing koreans while we still can. Milk them every opportunity we got. That's the only way we can get back at them, and get all our efforts compensated.

This just serves them right. They don't feel any guilt or shame whenever they delay our salaries, or whenever they wash their hands off their responsibilities. Yeah, that just serves them right. I've just had enough. It's time to get out of there. I've been harassed for too long now.

I won't be working for koreans again.

this is how i pass the time while rating...

and by rating i mean listening endlessly to koreans talk, ramble, rant, make weird noises, moan (yes, i mean that), and do some other weird stuff on their recorders as they answer our speaking tests.

ideally, i shouldn't be doing anything else while rating so i can concentrate and hear the responses accurately. but if i do nothing else, i would definitely fall asleep on the first file.

anyway, i got to know of the mystery case files games through my cousin. i'm not a gamer. i'm not really into playing psp or any other kind of console. i enjoy playing java games though. (i played this really cool surgeon game, but i haven't finished it yet because i my patient kept dying hehe..) so, back to MCF, i asked ross to download the games for me so i can play with them while working yay!